8:10 p.m. - 2005-05-12
May's Musings
Wow. It's been a really long time since I last wrote. Alas, I have had to get myself on antidepressants again. I spent the whole winter holed up on the couch watching TNT all day (from 10 AM - 6 PM was 2 hours of ER, 2 hours of Judging Amy, 1 hour of NYPD Blue, 2 hours of Law & Order, 1 hour of Third Watch, and then 1 hour of Crossing Jordan at 11 PM). Ugh. Too much.
So, I still have the morning ER habit. I can't seem to get my mornings jump started unless I watch TV. I don't know if this is because my hubby's snoring wakes me up too early or what.
So this time my depression showed up as a complete lack of motivation, inability to get moving, and general weepiness during my period (more than normal). Weird. A few years ago when I dealt with depression, it was extremely emotional... this time it was mostly numbness.
So I've basically gotten my head around the probability that I might need to stay on antidepressants forever. It's not a big deal - just weird to get used to doing something "adult" like remembering to take a drug every day.
Oh - and so now that I'm motivated again (by the warmer weather, longer sunshine, and probably the drugs) I'm on an organizing kick. Currently I'm going through my house's contents and getting ready to have a yard sale. My hubby and I are going on a road trip soon and it will be nice to have a few bucks of spending money with us.
We're also doing a lot of work on the house over the summer. The dining room FINALLY got painted - now all I need to do is hang up my shelves and stuff. We're getting new siding and having some landscaping done (to replace a deteriorating concrete retaining wall) and I'm looking forward to having all this work done. I'm also going to have to start mowing the lawn probably this weekend. Seems like the snow just melted about three weeks ago...
I don't have a ton of stuff going on mentally right now. I guess I'm content with where I'm at in my life. We're just plugging away doing little things to our house and property to improve it, and my hubby might have a few things up in the air with work in a few months, but we're happy to be here. We'll be happy to move on when the time is right, too.
This summer I want to get back into my scrapbooking and card making hard-core. I haven't scrapped at all since before we moved, and I really miss it. I have a ton of pictures to get scrapbooked, too.
Well, sorry for my next entry to be so boring - Guess I'm thankful to be through with winter and getting stuff cleaned out, sorted, and put away. We're getting closer to having all our boxes from moving here 1.5 years ago all unpacked. Ugh - I hate all the work of moving.
Until next time...
