4:26 p.m. - 2005-01-07
new year thoughts
my new year has started. i still haven't taken my christmas tree down, and i need to get my filing and bookkeeping caught up to get taxes started... but i am in the middle of reorganizing my office/craft room and man does it feel good. I got rid of my PC which was on life support and replaced it with a laptop, so i removed the computer desk and another small desk that was in there and replaced them with two bookshelves. i actually need an additional bookshelf as well - there are two and a half boxes of novels waiting to be unpacked. my husband refuses to give up some bookshelf space in his office (he has three built ins with some open space on them) but to his credit, he took over the boxed games, toys, and puzzles. i needed to get my scrapbooking and craft stuff organized so i would be inspired to work on scrapbooks again and start making greeting cards again, which are my two favorite things to do.
i also chucked some stuff from the fridge and breadbox and countertop and snack cupboard. that felt good. for the most part my kitchen is fairly organized now and i'm enjoying it immensely. i still am craving gingersnaps though, so i need to get on that and make some soon, as well as making some sugar free granola.
i have been completely addicted to lime jello salad made with sliced bananas, mandarin oranges, and cottage cheese. so addicted that i actually am going through two pounds of cottage cheese a week and two to three boxes of jello. mmmmmmm - lime jello.
i got some awesome cookbooks lately - a few showed up for christmas and one was picked up on an after christmas sale as an extra treat. i have an enormous cookbook collection - i don't make a ton of stuff out of them, but i love to read them, fall asleep reading them, and glean ideas from them. part of my food obsession i guess. i also love the food network - especially alton brown and rachael ray. mostly alton brown though. he's so cool that my hub likes him too.
i just got email from my globetrotting spontaneous friend who decided over christmas to pack up and leave montreal and is going to england in about two weeks to finish her masters in teaching english as a second language. she rocks. her cat will be kinda pissed though - he can't join her. i will be lucky to get a chance to see her briefly next week before she goes.
what are the things on my mind lately? hmm. one is that if you want to do something or change your life or who you are, you are only limited by yourself. do what you want, don't make excuses or live in fear. the other is you can't change other people or their opinions. i have a couple friendships i am struggling with lately - they have become unbalanced as the people who they are with are having some very strong opinions about a very large issue right now and refuse to admit that others have different points of view on the situation that are equally valid and may offer insight to them. they are just stubbornly acting as their view is the only one and going through some unnecessary pain and suffering because of it. i don't know if i am a worse friend for enabling them and supporting them emotionally through it, or if it would be being a better friend to rock their boat and upset it by sharing that i have a completely different take on it. i am not scared for the friendship to end; i am looking for the right balance of compassion and support without being untrue to myself. i haven't had to cross the line yet, but i have had a lot of feeling bad for them moments as i know that they'll never change their view and it's so subjective. i know we are all subjective and i just hope that i am never so closed minded that i refuse to listen to reason or hear someone else's opinion.
*sigh* life can get a little complicated sometime.
i am so lucky though. i have a best friend in my husband. he loves me, supports me, encourages me, and he just asked me if i would like to go out on a date with him tonight. what a sweetie.
i have really enjoyed keeping up with a couple diaries on diaryland as well. there are some really neat folks here that are real and intellectually honest (i know it's easy to do on such a forum, but hey - i still respect it) and some really awesome writers to boot!
listening to: "change your mind" by sister hazel
lyrics to that song are relevant to my current thoughts....
Hey, Hey
Did you ever think
There might be another way
To just feel better,
Just feel better about today
Oh no-
If you never want to have
To turn and go away
You might feel better,
Might feel better if you stay
Yeah yeah
I bet you haven't heard
A word I've said
Yeah yeah
If you've had enough
Of all your tryin'
Just give up
The state of mind you're inĄ
If you want to be somebody else,
If you're tired of fighting battles with yourself
If you want to be somebody else
Change your mind...
Hey hey-
Have you ever danced in the rain
Or thanked the sun
Just for shining- just for shining
Or the sea?
Oh no- take it all in
The world's a show
And yeah, you look much better,
Look much better when you glow
Hey hey-
what ya say
We both go and seize the day
'cause what's your hurry
what's your hurry anyway
